Why I Connect With Music

My mom has this story where I was upset about getting an iPod for Christmas because I at first didn’t know what an iPod was and secondly, I wouldn’t have been able to listen to my discman. I wouldn’t have to worry about batteries or having to listen to the same CD over and over again. I wasn’t upset about the fact I didn’t know what an iPod was, I knew what it was. I was used to listening my discman and changing over to a device that was smaller and more convenient was something I needed to get use it. I was more upset over the fact that I didn’t have the iPod in my hand 30 seconds before someone had grab it from me to look at it before I even had the chance to look at it.

Up until about grade 11, I was using a discman and listened to it on my way to and from school. I would use it till the batteries died and would have CDs of the week. Martina McBride’s Greatest Hits was one I would listen to from front to back. I would make countless burned CDs that had little bit of everything. I was attached to that discman. Getting an iPod rocked my world a little bit. I didn’t know I didn’t like change until that Christmas. Now I can’t go anywhere without my iPod. I’ve had several of them since then. They’ve been everyone. Its travelled more than some people would in a lifetime.

I’ve always felt connected to music. I know more about music than most people. I can hear the first few bars of a song and tell you the song, the band and where the band is from. Mostly its artists and songs that my parents grew up listening to. I don’t care for today’s music, which makes me sound old.

Music and lyrics speak to me. There are songs that I love that fit different scenarios. There are songs that take me back to a time where I had high hopes for myself. There are songs that I want to be played at different milestones in like life getting married, having kids. There are lines from songs that speak for me when I don’t know how to speak. Music has taught me so many things. It’s always been there. I can hide behind music and just be myself and not have to worry about what’s going in the world. Music always been a friend. know I can trust it. It’s never going away. As long as I have music in my life, I know I can feel safe and secure. When the world gets scary, music will be there to comfort me. When I feel like I’ve been hurt or defeated, music will always make me feel better. I can use songs as a way to express myself.

No matter where I go and who I’ll become. Music will always have a place in my heart. I will never be without it.