Not Every Story Is The Same

I always knew I wanted to write a book, but I never knew where to begin. I didn’t know if I wanted to write what it’s like to have Asperger’s and my experiences with living it or if I wanted to take one of the millions of ideas that have been floating around in my head and write a full length fiction novel, but I thought that maybe writing about my life experiences in my blog would be a lot easier than spending months maybe even years writing a book that may not even get published. My blog could be my book and anyone from anywhere in the world can access it at any time. Who knows, my blog entries could eventually turn into a book, if it falls into the right hands. Until that happens, lets write about Asperger’s and see where it takes me. This could my way of escaping and let out all the things that race thru my mind. Just a way for me to let everything out.

I came up with the idea of writing my memoirs about having Asperger’s because I always wanted to inspire people and I wanted to make a difference, but I was hesitant to write this because I didn't want to give too much information about myself. I didn’t want to tell too much. I didn’t want the world to know every little detail about me, but then I thought about it and realized that I’m in charge of what I say and how I say it. I’m in charge of making sure that what I say comes off as inspiring and not as something that comes off as a someone who’s looking for sympathy. If I don’t want, you to know something or if there’s a memory that I don’t want to share then I don’t have to talk about it. I can choose what you read and what you should know about me. All I want from this is to have people relate with me and know that they’re not the only one going thru whatever they're going thru.

I’m not ashamed of having Asperger’s, but there have been times where I wish it didn’t exist. People may be curious about why I am the way I am, and they should ask questions. There have been situations where Asperger’s makes an appearance and no matter how hard I try to hide it; it seems to show up unannounced and uninvited. I really should come up with a name for it. On the other hand, it’s part of who I am and if I was like everyone else then I wouldn’t be me. I’m one of a kind. There isn’t anyone out there who is as unique as I am. So, I guess having Asperger’s as its benefits. In the end, I just want to be able to be myself and hope that I can inspire at least one person. It’s my way of paying it forward. If one person learns anything from this, then maybe they can do the same for someone else and so and so forth. I hope you can come along this journey. We can learn how to deal with Asperger’s together. Not every story is the same, but I hope it will help you look at the world in a different way, thru someone else’s eyes.