Saying Goodbye To Youtube

YouTube has been going through a lot of changes over the years and it seems like it’s starting to take a toll on a lot of channels and videos. A lot of people who make a living on YouTube have had their share of thoughts and opinions about what youtube’s been doing to not only the website, but to the creators who make videos. To make a long story short, it’s not as fun as it used to be.

When I started posting videos in 2006 and I know that it doesn’t seem that long due to my oldest video being dated back to 2014, but over the years, I’ve deleted videos due to not getting the views I thought the video deserved. I honestly thought I would make a decent living making videos, but as time went on and seeing the numbers not going up, I thought why am I doing this if no one is going to be paying attention? I felt discouraged because I thought that this would be my way of getting into the career I always wanted to get into. I thought finally, I have a platform where I can share my interests and be myself. I can make friends and be able to create opportunities and make memories that I never thought I would ever experience. As time went on and I saw that my videos weren’t getting the love that I wanted them to get, I wondered if being in front of the camera wasn’t where I was supposed to be. Maybe being behind the camera and doing behind the scenes stuff was more up my alley.

It seemed like no matter how videos I posted or take the time to film and edit, I wasn’t seeing change. I always told myself that it wasn’t about the subscribers or how many views I got, but I always thought it would be nice to get a little bit of a following. Create a little bit of a fanbase where I can interact with other people and create friendships. I thought YouTube would be my way of making friends because I have a hard time connecting with people in real life and using YouTube would be a good way for me to share my interests and have other people connect with me thru my videos, but the more I posted, the less interaction I got and I thought why am I taking my time to make these videos and trying to connect with people when nobody is taking the time connect with me. I could go months without uploading a video and nobody seems to miss me. They don’t ask where I’ve been or ask if I’m okay.

As of 2022 and 16 years of YouTube. I have to take a step back from YouTube. I’ve lost interest in posting videos and “interacting” with whomever comments on my videos. My heart just isn’t in it anymore. Its hasn’t been my #1 priority for a few years now. I want to be able to focus on other interests on other platforms. I want to use other mediums to share my ideas and my stories. I want to make my dream job come true and YouTube isn’t it. I thought it was something I could do, but I just outgrew making videos. I made videos just for the sake of making videos. I felt pressured into uploading videos because I felt like the more I posted, the more traffic I was going to bring onto my channel. Keep people coming back for more. I have other talents that I could use. I want to have one less thing on my mind and not have to worry about making sure I do something exciting so I can have something to post.

It’s not an actual goodbye in a sense. I just want to be able to use my talents in other ways. I want to create with a passion and not have to do something just because other people are expecting me too. I want to make good content and with the pressure of trying to do that on YouTube doesn’t come natural to me anymore. I don’t feel inspired to film and even when I do, it doesn’t turn out the way I want it to. I may still post videos here and there when I have an idea for a video or do something that's worth filming and uploading. I don't feel inspired to film. There's nothing for me to say on youtube. I know people hardly watch my videos.

Youtube isn’t how I remember when I first joined in 2006. Its time to move on and try other things.