Saying Goodbye To Youtube

YouTube has been going through a lot of changes over the years and it seems like it’s starting to take a toll on a lot of channels and videos. A lot of people who make a living on YouTube have had their share of thoughts and opinions about what youtube’s been doing to not only the website, but to the creators who make videos. To make a long story short, it’s not as fun as it used to be.

I started posting videos in 2006 and I know that it doesn’t seem that long due to my oldest video being dated back to 2014, but over the years, I’ve deleted videos due to not getting the views I thought the video deserved. I honestly thought I would make a decent living making videos, but as time went on and seeing the numbers not going up, I thought why am I doing this if no one is going to be paying attention? I felt discouraged because I thought that this would be my way of getting into the career I always wanted to get into. I thought finally, I have a platform where I can share my interests and be myself. I can make friends and be able to create opportunities and make memories that I never thought I would ever experience. As time went on and I saw that my videos weren’t getting the love that I wanted them to get, I wondered if being in front of the camera wasn’t where I was supposed to be. Maybe being behind the camera and doing behind the scenes stuff was more up my alley.

It seemed like no matter how many videos I posted or took the time to film and edit, I wasn’t seeing change. I always told myself that it wasn’t about the subscribers or how many views I got, but I always thought it would be nice to get a little bit of a following.

Create a little bit of a fanbase where I can interact with other people and create friendships. I thought YouTube would be my way of making friends because I have a hard time connecting with people in real life and using YouTube would be a good way for me to share my interests and have other people connect with me thru my videos, but the more I posted, the less interaction I got and I thought why am I taking my time to make these videos and trying to connect with people when nobody is taking the time connect with me. I could go months without uploading a video and nobody seems to miss me. They don’t ask where I’ve been or ask if I’m okay.

As of 2022 and 16 years of YouTube. I have to take a step back from YouTube. I’ve lost interest in posting videos and “interacting” with whomever comments on my videos. My heart just isn’t in it anymore. Its hasn’t been my number one priority for a few years now. I want to be able to focus on other interests on other platforms. I want to use other mediums to share my ideas and my stories. I want to make my dream job come true and YouTube isn’t it. I thought it was something I could do, but I just outgrew making videos. I made videos just for the sake of making videos. I felt pressured into uploading videos because I felt like the more I posted, the more traffic I was going to bring onto my channel. Keep people coming back for more. I have other talents that I could use. I want to have one less thing on my mind and not have to worry about making sure I do something exciting so I can have something to post.

It’s not an actual goodbye in a sense. I just want to be able to use my talents in other ways. I want to create with a passion and not have to do something just because other people are expecting me too. I want to make good content and with the pressure of trying to do that on YouTube doesn’t come natural to me anymore. I don’t feel inspired to film and even when I do, it doesn’t turn out the way I want it to. I may still post videos here and there when I have an idea for a video or do something that's worth filming and uploading. I don't feel inspired to film. There's nothing for me to say on youtube. I know people hardly watch my videos. 

Youtube isn’t how I remember when I first joined in 2006. Its time to move on and try other things.