Dreaming Big and Reaching For The Stars

We have dreams and goals we want to accomplish in life. We want to be successful, healthy and make sure we have enough money in the bank for retirement, but do we really think about what we really want? Can you see yourself doing whatever you're doing now when you're 40, 50 or 65? I think that’s what most people are afraid of. I think people stay in a job because it's an income that pays the bills, but deep down they know that’s not what they want to do.

I always thought I could do something more. I thought I was doing something with my creativity. I always wanted to have something that would keep me busy. I would only go home to sleep. I thought I would have a big friend group where we would take weekend trips or go to a concert then spend the night at a hotel downtown. I thought I would be in a committed relationship on my way to planning a wedding or getting ready to have my first child. I thought about my life so much when I was younger. I had an idea on where I wanted it to go, but over time as I got older making your life happen the way you want it is never going to work if you try and make it go down the road you want it to. Everything that I want in life may not happen for me and I've started to believe that the goals I’ve set for myself aren’t ever going to be reached.

I had an idea in my head on where I wanted to be by the time I was the age I am now. I don’t like the “everything happens for a reason” theory. I like to think that if it happens, it happens. You can try and live the life you always wanted, but there are always things that are going to come up that will de-rail your life plan. It's the people that plan every little detail that always have something go wrong and they wonder what they could have done differently.

Marriage and kids have always been a big part of my “life plan”. I always saw myself raising kids and being married. I always felt the need to be a parent, but as time went on, I found that dream of mine would never happen. I’m getting older. People would say that I’m still young enough to have kids, but what age would you consider too old to have kids? I know people are becoming first time parents in their 40s and early 50s. I never wanted to be one of those people that are going to be 70 by the time the kid goes off to college.

As I look at the next 10 years, I wonder if it would be worth the time to really sit down and think about where I want the next decade to go. I could try new things, meet new people, make connections. I always told myself that if all else fails, then I’ll focus on what I love to do. People always say do what you love and you never have to work a day in your life. I always wanted to get my name out there and inspire people, but it's easier said than done when you feel like you're failing at the one thing you always wanted to do. 

I feel like if people want to accomplish the good things in life then they should make it happen. Do everything you always wanted to do in life. Reach for your dreams. I should take my own advice and reach for the stars. I’m in charge of my own life. Where it goes, no one knows.