Letting Go Of People

I’ve been hurt and disappointed by people. I’ve felt disrespected by people who I thought cared about me. Nobody thinks of me when it comes to big events. Nobody stands up for me. I feel like an after thought. I don’t need that type of person in my life. I want to feel valued and seen in someone’s life. I don’t want to have a one way relationship and not get that respect back. 

I’ve always been the one that would reach out because I want to keep whatever contact I can with someone, but when that person doesn’t respond, I realize that person doesn’t value my time and effort to keep in touch. I’m tired of not being important in someone else's life. I’m tired of not being part of other people’s life events. I’ve tried to be involved, but nothing ever happens and I’m left behind when something does happen. How am I supposed to know what’s going on in your life when I’m not part of it?

If people want to know what I’m doing or want me to be involved, they can reach out. I don’t need to be the one to do the talking. I don’t need to be the one to start a conversation. I also don’t want me not reaching out to someone as an excuse for someone not reaching out to me. People have my contact information, there are a million different ones to contact me, but they choose not to send me a message. People say they care, but they don’t show it.

I need to be able to let go of things that I don’t see are right. I need to let go of things that affect my mental health. The more I let go, the better I feel since I don’t have to worry about trying to fix something that can’t be fixed. I need to be able to let go of people who don’t value me and don’t take the time to see me as a person. I don’t need to keep people in my life that don’t take the time to be part of my life. If they don’t want me in their world, then I don’t want them in mine. I need to be able to stand up for myself when nobody else does. 

I’ve over not being important. I’m done with not being thought of or for not being asked or invited to things. I’m done with people assuming I’m not interested in being involved when in fact they've never reached out and asked me.  Letting go of people that don’t respect me or my time is something that needs to be done.