Writer’s Block

I have writer’s block. I can’t seem to get the words out on paper. I have a million ideas for books and screenplays, but I can’t seem to find the words. I keep going back and forth on what I want to work on that I keep thinking that what I’m working on isn’t going to be good enough, making me not want to keep working on it.

Blogging is easier for me due to being able to write from the heart, but once I start working on a book, I think it’s not going to be worth putting it out in the world because I think people aren’t going to be interested in it.

For all the times I say that I’m going to get some writing done and work on a project, nine times out of ten, it’s just me looking at a blank screen trying to come up with the words. It’s hard because I know I want to write, I know it’s something that I want to do, but I feel like since I don’t have anything published, I don’t have the motivation or the inspire to write. Who am I writing for? Who am I telling my stories too? What type of writer do I want to be? Do I want to write horror like Stephen King, be like R.L Stine and create my own Goosebumps series?

I would love to be able to write a book series and create characters that I’m proud of. Make them go on adventures and save the world, but do I really have the talent for that? Do I really have what it takes to create a story that spans over a handful of books?

I feel like a fraud because I say I’m a writer, but I don’t have anything to show for it. I don’t have the work to back it up. I feel pressured into creating something and because of that my writing suffers because of it. I feel like I have to write because that’s what I say I do, but I feel like the pressure to write something makes my work not turn out the way I want it to. My ideas just stay ideas. I have pieces of paper with book ideas, a bunch of word documents that are in a “Work In Progress” folder and notes on my phone of potential movie ideas.

Since I’m not a published author, I feel like I don’t have a fan base to encouraging me to keep going. I don’t have people waiting days for my newest book to come out. I feel like no matter how much work I put into something; it’s never going to see the light of day. I don't want to write just because I have to, but because I want to.

I want to be optimistic, but I feel like my ideas aren’t good enough and the pressure of trying to bringing those ideas to life is hard. I can’t seem to focus on anything. I don’t feel passionate about any projects. I don’t know if I should just power through and take a step back? Take a mental health break and revaluate where I want to go as a writer.

Should I look into other types of writing like newspapers, articles, things like that? Am I dreaming to big? Should I just tone it down a little and start small and work my way up? Should I just keep working on my blog and hope that it will get there where I want it to go?