I was always going back and forth on online dating. I felt like people would judge me on my picture before they got the chance to know me. I didn’t want them to go off how I looked. I was self conscious. I tried an online dating site back when I was in my early 20s and because I was self conscious, I didn’t post pictures because I wanted to see if a guy would message me without knowing what I looked like. A couple of them did, but it never went past the initial “Hi, how are

The Shining has always been my favourite Stephen King book and the movie starring Jack Nicholson has always been one of my favourite movies, but the ending has always been a mystery. Everybody has a different theory about why Jack Torrance appears in the picture from 1921 when clearly he died in the hedge maze. I don’t think there is a right or wrong answer, but there is an indication in the movie that tells us that he’s been at the hotel for almost 60 years, maybe even longe

A few years ago, I had a fan site named Depp Deluise which was dedicated to Johnny Depp, Peter Deluise and the awesome show that was 21 Jump Street. I had it for quite a while and it was something that I was proud of. After a couple years, it ran its course. The website became quiet and people lost interest. I decided that it was time to end it and break up with Depp Deluise and delete the site. During my time running the website. I had become facebook friends with Peter Delu

With everything that’s going on in the world right now is scary. We are living a new normal. There are people who think that this is not as serious as we say it is. No matter how many people are affected by it, it doesn’t seem to make people understand how bad it really is. I was talking to a friend of mine about it and I mentioned to her that if you had a cold or a flu, you would call in sick, stay home and not interact with the public. Why not do that with the corona virus?

With everything that’s been going on in the world; it would be nice to see some good. We can only do so much, but as a community and as the world, we can change one thing at a time and hope that has a domino effect. We can protest, lead marches and sit in at rallies, but what does that really show? We can only say so much with the same 3 or 4 tactics over and over again. When will someone take action and learn that what we want is to see change, but as the past has shown us,

We have dreams and goals we want to accomplish in life. We want to be successful, healthy and make sure we have enough money in the bank for retirement, but do we really think about what we really want? Can you see yourself doing whatever you're doing now when you're 40, 50 or 65? I think that’s what most people are afraid of. I think people stay in a job because it's an income that pays the bills, but deep down they know that’s not what they want to do. I always thought I co

People write for various reasons. Some will write in a journal because they want to keep their thoughts to themselves. Other people blog because they want to be able to share their experiences and be there for other people who may be going through the same things as they are. No matter how or where you write, it's a good habit to get into. Writing is a way for people who have a hard time being able to say things verbally. I don’t like talking, especially on the phone and in s

I've always been someone who always wanted to chase my dreams, but I never had a reason or the motivation to do it. I always get distracted by something else and making my dreams come true get farther and farther away, but over the last couple of months, I realized that if I want to have the life I always wanted, I had to put in the work to make it happen. I had to get my ass in gear and do what I have to do to make those dreams come true. There are a million things I want to

We were born to love. When we were kids, we were constantly told to be nice to others, use our manners and to share, but where does that go when we get older. It's like we get to a certain age and all the good things we’re taught as kids are thrown out the window. We are constantly judging others and bringing people down. We use our words for evil instead of for good. We may not even know the person, but with peer pressure, we turn into a person that we never thought we’ll be

Where do you see yourself in 10, 20 or 50 years? Is the life you have now the life you want in 10 years or is there something that you could change that can make you want to live the life you want and be proud of. I want to be able to look back and know that I’ve worked hard and there was nothing stopping me from doing what I really wanted to do. I’m always about reaching for your dreams, doing what makes you happy and you can have the life you always dreamt about, but once i

Every year I always tell myself that I’m going to do a bunch of things throughout the year, but I always get discouraged and I always think about how its never going to turn out the way I think it's going to and I never end up doing said things. I always think about the end result long before I even start whatever idea I have in my head. I always worked hard at whatever I did, but when I feel like I don’t get recognition or feedback, I start to doubt myself and I give up beca

Everyone has things they want to accomplish in life. We never know how much time we have. We want to make the most of the time we do have. Sometimes it feels like we won’t ever conquer everything we set our minds to and it discourages us from doing what we actually want to do. I think a lot of us are afraid to fail. We want to see success as soon as possible and when that doesn’t happen within the first few times we do it, we start to believe that we won’t ever reach that lev

I always wanted to be my own boss. I always wanted to be able to do something that I always wanted to and be able to do on my own terms and not have to take direction from anyone. I’ve never been a people person and working with people on a regular basis is overwhelming for me. I’ve never been the one to engage with co-workers or customers. I always had them come to me if they wanted to talk or ask a question. I want to be happy with what I’m doing and not have anxiety about

With all the love I have for anything Disney, you would think that working at Disneyland would be the perfect job. Possibly a dream job. Over the years, I have thought about whether working at the wonderful world of Disney would be a good fit. On one hand, I would be able to meet people who share a love of Disney, but on the other hand, it would become just a job and not a passion. After a while, the novelty of working there would go away and I would dread being there because

You would think that since I’m awake at 4:00 in the morning, working the graveyard shift would be perfect. Get paid to stay up all night, but after a while, it really started to take its toll. Since I worked during the night, I would sleep all day and because of that, I felt that there weren't enough hours in the day to get the things I needed to get done before I had to take a nap before heading to work for my 12am shift. It was challenging because as much as I liked the id

I follow the rules. If you tell me not to do something, I won’t do it. Depending on the situation, I may tweak the rules to make it work, but if you know me, you know that I am by the book. If the rules aren’t being followed, I feel guilty about it, especially if it will affect me later on, but sometimes I think breaking them once in a while could be a good thing. It could help you or someone else. Driving is a good example of following the rules. They are there for a reason

I never knew I needed a routine until I didn’t have one anymore. Going to school until I was 18 years old was my routine. When I graduated in 2006, I realized that I needed something. I needed to do the same thing everyday. Being able to do something everyday is something that a person with autism/aspergers can control. It could be the smallest thing like getting the mail from the mailbox, going to the coffee shop at the same time everyday or if someone is able to, going to w

Nobody expected 2020 to go to hell. A new year is supposed to be for new beginnings, a fresh start, but within weeks, the year turned to be a year we’re all going to remember and not for anything good. When I started to read about what was happening, I thought that it was just within certain areas of the world. Nobody expected to be anything serious. I thought that people were just over reacting and that they were just acting like it was the end of the world. Especially when

We look at the world in a different way. We have our own way of navigating. It may not be the same as you, but we’ll get there when we get there. We are compassionate, creative, intelligent and loyal. We can do so much when given the chance. We want to be able to show the world what we can do. I know people look down on others who are different from themselves. They don’t know what they can’t explain. People may think they know everything there is about Aspergers and Autism,

I knew that my classmates looked at me differently and I knew that they sensed there was something about me that they couldn’t figure out. I had a feeling that teachers knew something, but were either too afraid to ask or didn’t have the skills at the time to really handle whatever they thought was going on. Even from an early age, I knew I was different. I always felt weird and out of place. I felt like nobody understood me. As I got older, I kept to myself and didn’t bothe

I hope people would say that I’m a person who is trustworthy, loyal and dependable. I feel like sometimes I can be all three a little too much and people take advantage of that. I have a hard time saying no. As much as I want to stand up for myself and say no , but there’s always a piece of me that thinks that if I say no to many times, people are going to stop trusting me and think that I’m not as loyal as I was, but if I say yes to many times, then people are going to rel

At first, I didn’t know if I wanted to write what it's like to have Autism Spectrum Disorder and share my experiences living with it or if I wanted to take one of the millions of ideas that have been floating around in my head and write a full length fiction novel, but I thought that maybe writing about my life experiences in my blog would be a lot easier then spending months maybe even years writing a book that may not even get published. My blog could be my book and anyone

There are TV shows and movies that have a character on the autism spectrum it could be Asperger's or it could be any other part on the spectrum but there are thought I know of that I have seen or at least know of and/or watched that as a kid on a spectrum or has the symptoms of Asperger's but they they’re actually said that that character has that one thing. Sheldon Cooper in The Big Bang Theory is probably the first person you think of when you hear Aspergers. There’s been n

I did my first play when I was in kindergarten and was part of a few Christmas productions in the second, fourth and sixth grade. When I got to high school I did theatre every year until grade 11. It was a different experience and I wish I could say good things, but it was challenging and difficult. The drama teacher was not a pleasant person to work with and to be around. He had his favourites and those would be the people who would star in the main production. No matter how