I can’t remember when it started, but it always seems like I had anxiety. When I think I’ve done something wrong, I can’t stop thinking about it. I tend to overthink it. If I don’t speak up and get it off my chest then I feel like it’s going to stay with me. If I tell someone what’s bothering me even when it’s something I didn’t do, I’ll feel better. It could be something I’ve said in the moment or something I could have done, but I panicked and didn’t do it like I should hav

It’s not every day that someone reaches out to me. I never know who is reading my blog or watching my YouTube videos, but every so often, I will get a comment on social media in regards to my Asperger’s or just autism in general. Melissa Lushington came across my YouTube channel. She mentioned on one of my videos that she writes a blog about autism advocacy, independence, and acceptance. She then sent me a heartwarming email about how she is a 25-year-old woman who is on the

Motivation for me comes and goes. Some days, I want to change the world. Other days, I ask myself if what I’m doing is really what I’m supposed to be doing with my life, but when I really think about what motivates me to keep going with my writing is the fact that hopefully one day it will inspire someone to do good in the world. If someone is having a bad day, I hope that I can make them feel better by reading what I have to say. What motivates me is knowing that something g

I always knew I wanted to write a book, but I never knew where to begin. I didn’t know if I wanted to write what it’s like to have Asperger’s and my experiences with living it or if I wanted to take one of the millions of ideas that have been floating around in my head and write a full length fiction novel, but I thought that maybe writing about my life experiences in my blog would be a lot easier than spending months maybe even years writing a book that may not even get publ

When it was time to create a blog about my experiences with Autism and being on the Autism spectrum, I knew what I wanted to call it. I had this name in my head for years and if I were to ever write a book about my journey, this was what I would call it. Anything, but Ordinary came easy. I got the idea from an Avril Lavigne song. It fit perfectly. It was a name that I knew I wanted to use, and it felt right. People with autism aren’t ordinary, we’re anything, but ordinary. I

In Flanders fields, the poppies blow. Between the crosses, row on row. That mark our place; and in the sky. The larks, still bravely singing, fly. Scarce heard amid the guns below. We are the Dead. Short days ago. We lived, felt dawn, saw sunset glow. Loved and were loved, and now we lie. In Flanders fields. Take up our quarrel with the foe: To you from failing hands we throw. The torch; be yours to hold it high. If ye break faith with us who die. We shall not sleep, though p

It's Not The Length Of Life, But The Depth Of It. This quote was on my friend’s nexopia page in high school. Unfortunately, my friend passed away in 2006 at the age of 16 and this quote has stuck with me since then. It really does say a lot. It doesn’t mean how long you live, but how much meaning a life has. Life is meant to be lived. Give it depth and experience what it gives you. I Won’t Let Fear Clip My Wings And Tell Me How High I Can Fly. - “One Way Ticket” by Leanne Ri

Do you remember where you were on September 11, 2001? I woke up that morning like any other day. I had just begun grade 8, my first year of high school just a few days before. I got dressed and went downstairs. Like every morning, I turned on the TV and sat on the couch. I wasn’t paying attention to what was going on at the time. I was busy getting ready for school. I remember seeing one or maybe even both towers in flames, but I didn’t really give it a whole lot of thought.

For years I always debated about going to Walt Disney World for various reasons. The flight to get there from where I am is 6+ hours direct or I can take numerous flights making the travelling day over 14 hours. Who really has time for that. Then there’s the thing about wanting to mess with the original. I like to call Walt Disney World the sequel. Everyone knows that sequels are crap. Nothing compares to the original. It's how Disney started, but I wanted to at least check o

I was always going back and forth on online dating. I felt like people would judge me on my picture before they got the chance to know me. I didn’t want them to go off how I looked. I was self conscious. I tried an online dating site back when I was in my early 20s and because I was self conscious, I didn’t post pictures because I wanted to see if a guy would message me without knowing what I looked like. A couple of them did, but it never went past the initial “Hi, how are

The Shining has always been my favourite Stephen King book and the movie starring Jack Nicholson has always been one of my favourite movies, but the ending has always been a mystery. Everybody has a different theory about why Jack Torrance appears in the picture from 1921 when clearly he died in the hedge maze. I don’t think there is a right or wrong answer, but there is an indication in the movie that tells us that he’s been at the hotel for almost 60 years, maybe even longe

A few years ago, I had a fan site named Depp Deluise which was dedicated to Johnny Depp, Peter Deluise and the awesome show that was 21 Jump Street. I had it for quite a while and it was something that I was proud of. After a couple years, it ran its course. The website became quiet and people lost interest. I decided that it was time to end it and break up with Depp Deluise and delete the site. During my time running the website. I had become facebook friends with Peter Delu

With everything that’s going on in the world right now is scary. We are living a new normal. There are people who think that this is not as serious as we say it is. No matter how many people are affected by it, it doesn’t seem to make people understand how bad it really is. I was talking to a friend of mine about it and I mentioned to her that if you had a cold or a flu, you would call in sick, stay home and not interact with the public. Why not do that with the corona virus?

With everything that’s been going on in the world; it would be nice to see some good. We can only do so much, but as a community and as the world, we can change one thing at a time and hope that has a domino effect. We can protest, lead marches and sit in at rallies, but what does that really show? We can only say so much with the same 3 or 4 tactics over and over again. When will someone take action and learn that what we want is to see change, but as the past has shown us,

We have dreams and goals we want to accomplish in life. We want to be successful, healthy and make sure we have enough money in the bank for retirement, but do we really think about what we really want? Can you see yourself doing whatever you're doing now when you're 40, 50 or 65? I think that’s what most people are afraid of. I think people stay in a job because it's an income that pays the bills, but deep down they know that’s not what they want to do. I always thought I co

People write for various reasons. Some will write in a journal because they want to keep their thoughts to themselves. Other people blog because they want to be able to share their experiences and be there for other people who may be going through the same things as they are. No matter how or where you write, it's a good habit to get into. Writing is a way for people who have a hard time being able to say things verbally. I don’t like talking, especially on the phone and in s

I've always been someone who always wanted to chase my dreams, but I never had a reason or the motivation to do it. I always get distracted by something else and making my dreams come true get farther and farther away, but over the last couple of months, I realized that if I want to have the life I always wanted, I had to put in the work to make it happen. I had to get my ass in gear and do what I have to do to make those dreams come true. There are a million things I want to

We were born to love. When we were kids, we were constantly told to be nice to others, use our manners and to share, but where does that go when we get older. It's like we get to a certain age and all the good things we’re taught as kids are thrown out the window. We are constantly judging others and bringing people down. We use our words for evil instead of for good. We may not even know the person, but with peer pressure, we turn into a person that we never thought we’ll be

Where do you see yourself in 10, 20 or 50 years? Is the life you have now the life you want in 10 years or is there something that you could change that can make you want to live the life you want and be proud of. I want to be able to look back and know that I’ve worked hard and there was nothing stopping me from doing what I really wanted to do. I’m always about reaching for your dreams, doing what makes you happy and you can have the life you always dreamt about, but once i

Every year I always tell myself that I’m going to do a bunch of things throughout the year, but I always get discouraged and I always think about how its never going to turn out the way I think it's going to and I never end up doing said things. I always think about the end result long before I even start whatever idea I have in my head. I always worked hard at whatever I did, but when I feel like I don’t get recognition or feedback, I start to doubt myself and I give up beca

Everyone has things they want to accomplish in life. We never know how much time we have. We want to make the most of the time we do have. Sometimes it feels like we won’t ever conquer everything we set our minds to and it discourages us from doing what we actually want to do. I think a lot of us are afraid to fail. We want to see success as soon as possible and when that doesn’t happen within the first few times we do it, we start to believe that we won’t ever reach that lev

I always wanted to be my own boss. I always wanted to be able to do something that I always wanted to and be able to do on my own terms and not have to take direction from anyone. I’ve never been a people person and working with people on a regular basis is overwhelming for me. I’ve never been the one to engage with co-workers or customers. I always had them come to me if they wanted to talk or ask a question. I want to be happy with what I’m doing and not have anxiety about

With all the love I have for anything Disney, you would think that working at Disneyland would be the perfect job. Possibly a dream job. Over the years, I have thought about whether working at the wonderful world of Disney would be a good fit. On one hand, I would be able to meet people who share a love of Disney, but on the other hand, it would become just a job and not a passion. After a while, the novelty of working there would go away and I would dread being there because

You would think that since I’m awake at 4:00 in the morning, working the graveyard shift would be perfect. Get paid to stay up all night, but after a while, it really started to take its toll. Since I worked during the night, I would sleep all day and because of that, I felt that there weren't enough hours in the day to get the things I needed to get done before I had to take a nap before heading to work for my 12am shift. It was challenging because as much as I liked the id