Over the last couple of weeks, I’ve been irritable, on edge, overwhelmed, anxious, stressed, nervous, on the verge of tears and just ready to have a mental breakdown. I’m done dealing with people, I’m done dealing with this year. I don’t know what’s going on. I’ve never felt like I’m about to cry over the smallest thing, but I've started to lose patience with not only people, but with everything else. I’m surprised that I haven’t lashed out on someone. When I look back over

If I’m being honest, there are things that I would love to do, but I’m afraid to do. I don’t know if it's an aspergers thing or if I’m just scared of the outcome. When I think about things I’ve done like youtube, I think about how that was a failure. I was excited about finally finding a platform where I could be myself and be able to show my interests and make friends etc, but overtime it went nowhere. I developed nothing from it and I was disappointed because I knew that wh

I’ve always wanted kids. It’s the one thing in the world that I’ve always wanted, but I’ve found myself especially over the last couple of years that I’m never going to have them. I’ve imagined that at this point in my life, I would at least have one child, but as time goes on, I feel like that dream isn’t going to happen. I watch everyone around me getting married and starting families. I want to be part of that. I can’t be around people who have kids because it reminds me

I’ve been a fan of Ray Liotta for many years. I grew up watching Field of Dreams, Corrina Corrina and many other films. He was an intimating guy on screen, but a sweetheart in person. I never got the chance to meet him, but from what I hear from people that have said that he was one of the nicest people. He took the time to talk to you and take pictures. It was a shock to hear that he had passed away, especially since he didn’t have any health issues. He went in the most pe

I’ve always wanted to write a book. I have so many ideas, but it’s hard to put those stories into words. I’ve told people that I was going to start writing a book, but it never really turned into anything. I would be really into it for a couple weeks then I’ll stop and never go back to it. I know it’s something I want to do; it’s just getting started and sticking with it. I have to find a way to make it happen and I can’t talk myself out of it. I keep telling myself that it’

I haven’t been on a plane since June 2019. I was thinking of doing a solo trip to Disneyland in 2020, but we all know how that turned out. Since then I’ve been off travelling on a plane. With all the restrictions that constantly change to borders and customs, I don’t want to be caught going somewhere then having everything change again when I’m away and having to find a way to get home safely. I thought about going to Disneyland as my first trip back, but I’m having second t

On April 6, 2018, a tragic accident happened in Armley, Saskatchewan. Sixteen people lost their lives, and many were injured. Everyone involved were part of the Humboldt Broncos, a junior ice hockey team, either as players or worked as staff. The crash made its way around the world and many famous figures paid their respects. There were vigils and tributes. People left a hockey stick outside of their front doors. Within days, $15 million was raised on a GoFundMe page. The me

I have a hard time connecting with people. I thought that online dating would be a good way for me to get out of my comfort zone and meet people who I thought I would never meet in person. I’ve been on and off dating apps since July of last year. At one point, I was on three apps at the same time. Out of all three of them, I got nothing. I’m starting to think it’s me and not the apps themselves. I don’t understand how someone can meet someone within hours of signing up when

Social media is used for various reasons. It can be used for business, pleasure, or a way to pass the time. Everyone has a reason why they’re online. Depending on how you look at it, some people are against it. What you put online stays online, but there are other people who make a living by being online. When I started to use social media, I thought it was going to be a way for me to make friends. I would be able to share my interests with other people. I had started a YouT

YouTube has been going through a lot of changes over the years and it seems like it’s starting to take a toll on a lot of channels and videos. A lot of people who make a living on YouTube have had their share of thoughts and opinions about what youtube’s been doing to not only the website, but to the creators who make videos. To make a long story short, it’s not as fun as it used to be. I started posting videos in 2006 and I know that it doesn’t seem that long due to my oldes

I was 24 years old when I moved out of my parents’ house into a basement suite. My mom thought it was the right time. She wanted me to learn how to be more independent and living with my parents wasn’t going to help with that, but I knew that I wasn’t ready to move out even through when it was time I did move out, I didn’t want to be that close to my parents because I felt like the closer I was to them, the better chance that I would rely on them to help me with day to day st

Brandon. July 29, 1989 - February 1, 2006. When I was in grade 9, I became stage manager of the junior play at my high school and during rehearsals; I got to know the cast and crew. Every year, the same group of actors came back to be in the plays. We would hang out in the theatre, either rehearsing or doing set design. There was one cast member named Brandon, who I began to take a liking to because he had talent. Acting was easy for him and as time went on I didn't know he

March 5, 2022 marks 40 years since the world lost a shooting star. 40 years ago today, John Belushi departed this earth with only the memories of what he left behind in the world. John had everything. He had a number one album, a number one TV show and a number one movie all by the time he was 30. He was well loved by everyone around him. You knew that he had so much, but his time on earth was not meant to be for long. He came into our lives with a purpose and before we knew

When I started my first blog in 2009, I thought I was going to make a living off what I wrote. I thought within a few months, I would have a small following of people who would like and comment on my posts. I thought I would meet people and make friends. I was wrong. I had my first blog for 11 years and it never took off. Towards the end, I had given up on it because I knew that it wasn’t going anywhere, and I felt like I was writing just for the hell of it. Nobody was readin

Every writer is different, every writer has a different story to tell. Everyone wants to write for a reason and with purpose, but there are things that writers should know when it comes to wanting to write full time and for the rest of their lives. It’s not an easy thing especially if you want to become successful. It’s Going To Take Time Are you writing because you think it’s easy? Do you think you can write something, post it online and hope that it will go viral? If you th

I wrote this back in high school and I had to laugh. I thought it would become a big deal back in the day, but I had nowhere to post it online since social media and blogs weren’t really a thing when I was in high school. It was just sitting there in a bunch of stuff that I wrote. I didn’t think it would ever see the light of day again, but I was thinking about it, so I dug it out and wanted to share it with you. Who knows, Ron Howard may say and get a laugh out of it. It’s t

Sleepovers are weird. I’ve never been a fan. I’ve had them, I went to them, but I never felt comfortable. Even when the person was my best friend, I just wanted to sleep in my own bed. There are a few sleepovers I had as a kid that made me think. “What was I thinking?”. The one that sticks out in my head was one I had for my birthday. At some point during the night, I went upstairs and slept on the couch leaving my guests downstairs to fend for themselves. I was over it and

In 2008, Vancouver Canucks co-owners, Paolo and Clara Aquilini founded Canucks Autism Network also known as CAN. They were inspired by their son who has autism. They want to be able to provide programs to individuals who are on the autism spectrum. They also want to promote acceptance and inclusion through engagement in the community and training initiatives across BC and beyond. https://www.canucksautism.ca/ There are so many young people in BC with autism and they feel lik

I’m known to go to the book store and buy books. I have stacks of books that are on my to-read list and I don’t know if there will be enough time in the world for me to read every single book I have, but it’s a challenge I’m willing to accept. I need an intervention. For as long as I could remember I’ve always been into books. I would spend a lot of time in high school hanging out in the library. One of my classes in grade 12 was a librarian assistant where I would check out

My mom has this story where I was upset about getting an iPod for Christmas because I at first didn’t know what an iPod was and secondly, I wouldn’t have been able to listen to my discman. I wouldn’t have to worry about batteries or having to listen to the same CD over and over again. I wasn’t upset about the fact I didn’t know what an iPod was, I knew what it was. I was used to listening to my discman and changing over to a device that was smaller and more convenient was som

I do have to admit that I let fear hold me back. I let fear take control. When I have doubts about something, I convince myself of its fear telling me that I shouldn’t do it even when I know that I should at least try before I walk away. Anxiety plays a part in it too. Sometimes I think they go hand in hand in some situations. If I’m talking myself out of something, I think fear is there to convince that its a scary thing and then the anxiety tells me a whole bunch of things

When I tell people about my dream team, they ask what it is and who’s on it. My dream team is a group of actors and musicians who I’ve respected and admired for years. I hope to one day meet them and thank them for the impact they have on me. If you know about my old blog, One Goal, One Mission, you will know that I wrote a blog in hopes that it will land in the hands of the people on my dream team. Anything, but Ordinary is just like that. I'm writing not only for my dream t

When I was 16 years old, I was trying to get my learners permit to drive, but I didn’t pass. In fact, it took me fifteen tries over eight years to finally get my learners. Looking back on my first few attempts, I felt like I was pressured into getting my driver's licence because my classmates and peers were getting theirs and I felt like if I got mine, I would be part of the group that got more independence because I was able to get behind the wheel of a car. I realized now t

I’ve been on numerous trips in my life, but I’ve never been out of the country let alone the province by myself. I’ve always traveled with someone like family or a friend. That doesn’t mean I can’t travel by myself. I can do what a person without an autism spectrum disorder can do. I just haven’t felt like it was the right time to travel solo. Sometimes I feel like my autism shows and I don’t want to come off as nervous going through security and having them like I’m hiding